Wednesday, 27 October 2010
Tuesday, 26 October 2010
I had always wondered why I wasn’t good enough for my husband. I cooked; I cleaned and dressed nicely whenever we were going for one of his fancy evenings. I did everything he wanted so why didn’t he love me? I turned off the television and pulled the sheets underneath my chin. The bed was warm but cold in a way. Every time he put his hand on me I thought of my husband and how he’d lie to me about important business trips that turned out to be romantic getaways in expensive hotels. I was sick of it! I wanted him here with me in our home, in our bed, where he was supposed to be. I knew he was with someone else and whenever I pictured what she might look like, I felt a pain tear my heart apart.
So I found myself in the arms of John Ashe a man I met no more than two weeks ago. He seemed eligible for my purpose. We met at the central park in
‘Suzanne? What’s wrong?’ John held a puzzled expression on his face as I wrapped myself tightly around him. I did it because I didn’t know what else to do. I wanted my husband and if having an affair would make him realise how much he was supposed to love me, then I would consume John in every way possible.
‘I’m fine. I just want to hold on to you. I’m afraid you’re going to leave really soon.’ I was lying, and hoping it wasn’t obvious.
‘I’ll stay as long as you want me Suzie, You know that. Don’t you?’ Did I? Did I know that he was willing to stay longer than I had bargained for? Did I know that I was leading him on? I smiled innocently even though I was as guilty as the devil himself.
‘I Know John, I know.’ I sighed deeply and placed my head on his chest as our bodies intertwined.
Emily was bewildered by the fantastic shapes below us as we flew over the
‘Why is today the last jack?’ She whispered weakly in my ear.
‘I know you’re upset, but this is what we agreed on, two weeks you know that!’
She looked out the window. The
‘Call me when you need me jack I’m always here.’ She leaned on me. I kissed her chestnut hair.